I'm becoming somebody I don't want to be

I wonder why it always rains just when you're feeling sad. Or maybe, you feel sad because of the rain. Anyway, today, we're thursday and I'm all alone. No school today, 'cause there's a "cyclone". So I'm stuck here all alone. I thought I'd spend the day reading the book Claire lent me. Pet Sematary, by Stephen King. Norma's just died.

But then I came into the computer room to put some music on. I always shuffle the songs and today, all the songs that played seemed to give me the blues. So i ended up playing my bluesy playlist.

And suddenly, with the music loud in my ears, and the rain in front of my eyes, an unknown emotion builds up inside of me. A feeling of sadness, but not of pain. Does that even make sense? But somehow it does. I feel strangely at peace.

I felt like writing, so here i am. It's been a while, hasn't it, since i last wrote something. I was starting to feel i had given up on my blog, i had really nothing to add, but here i am once again, my fingers running a race on my keyboard. No one ever reads these, but i find a sort of liberation when i'm writing.

It feels like tears from the sky. I love cyclones. And today i realise how so much better they are when you're all alone. I thinks i'll go outside a while and enjoy the rain. But the only thing is that i won't be able to listen to music outside. How I miss my iPod!! I guess this is the time to tell you about the highly unfortunate event that occured -- when was it?-- about a month ago. My iPod's screen took a blow and has ended up with a nasty black spot. So my baby went for repairs, but he's not back yet. Anyway, i'm off.